So I have a confession to make, and no Foo Fighters it’s not that I’m your fool, because I am nobodies fool, besides my two daughters of course, but that’s not by choice. That’s called biology or chemistry— or science in general? Ah. You see what is happening? I heard that your brain actually shrinks during pregnancy and doesn’t repair immediately after baby. Some research says six months after, others say two years after—point is, Momnesia is a real thing. The theory I have about myself from having two kids within a two-year period is that my brain is now actually extra small because it never recovered the first time around. As a result, I have found myself increasingly dumber, stupider, denser- I can use all the synonyms in the world to try to soften the blow–but bottom line is I have become a complete idiot.
Take today as an example. My daughter and I do a Toddler and Me class, much like a nursery school class, but no separation—the way this mama likes it. I wear my three month old in the Bjorn to these classes. Anyway, it was a little chaotic getting out of the house per usual, loading and unloading my clan in and out of the car, and into class. Then I started to smell a familiar smell—a foul smell.
I pulled my toddler aside, stretched her hot pink leggings peaking into her diaper, and Bingo, just as I suspected, she had a poop.
“You got poopsies little one,” I said grabbing her little hand, intertwining our fingers–leading her towards my denim diaper bag.
“Poopy, poopy,poopy,” my toddler parroted while chanting in a circle.
I escorted her out of the classroom and down the hall, where we stopped to see Mocha the bunny—we both said “hop, hop” jumping up and down to greet him. We continued on, her saying “uppy” twice along the way, but really not wanting to be held after hoisting her up, my littlest still in the carrier—a lot going on. We eventually made it to the bathroom, me eyeing the changing table in solidarity—it was us against the toddler. I quickly swooped her up, checked to make sure her foot didn’t kick my three-month old in the process—and listened to her whine because nothing in this entire world is worse than a diaper change when you are 21 months old. Nothing!
In my peripheral I heard loud footsteps enter the bathroom and use the facilities. Then the faucet next to me turned on trickling water, drip dropping onto the bottom of the sink. I turned to acknowledge the woman next to me. The problem was—I was pretty sure that was not a woman—but who am I to judge? Maybe she was just against waxing. I mean, you should have seen me that day. Now, a normal human with a properly functioning brain would think, “oh damn, maybe I am in the wrong bathroom.” But no, I didn’t give it a second thought. The woman gave me a bizarre look and a nod, but I chalked it up to the made up songs I was singing to distract my daughter from diaper changing hell.
Only when we exited the bathroom and I saw the sign on the door in white lettering—Men—was when I finally realized “damn I was in the wrong bathroom.” And no, the row of urinals didn’t tip me off. It’s like my brain forgot that another gender existed and they have a separate bathroom. No wonder that man gave me a “WTF are you doing in here lady and waving at me like it’s no big deal” look.
Then even better, I was talking to a mother in my class who is due in March with twins, a boy and a girl.
“How are you feeling? Last week there was a man in our class whose wife has twins due in March as well! She wasn’t feeling well so she didn’t come to class.” I mused as I guided my daughter’s hand as she was scribbling with a green marker on blue construction paper. I looked up at her and she must have been thinking, moron, he was with the same kid I have been taking here every freaking week and he is my husband. But she politely said “that is my husband.”
“Awe your husband is so nice and my brain is officially shot. That I didn’t realize he was your husband and with sweet Jack (her son) is beyond me!” Talk about stupid! The teachers, everyone in the class, roared with laughter and then were making excuses for me: You are tired, you have a three-month old and a toddler, and it’s totally understandable. How I didn’t know it was the same kid, with the same name, is a mystery beyond me. Maybe those metal alloys from the UFO’s have the answer. Maybe not.
So here I am hoping that if we share our experiences, strength and hope with each other we can get through this incredibly dumb period in our lives together. Say it with me if this behavior applies to you as well: “My name is __________ and I have Momnesia. Pray for me.”